If you are regular reader of our News and Directors Notes page, or you follow us on Facebook you will know that we lost a member of the Company recently. Rob may not have been active with us over the past couple of years but he was, and will always be, a Nut. And he certainly had an impact! So come with me as I take you on a tour of Rob's characters and hopefully illustrate to you just what a unique and special human being he was. Rob was a member of Gerald's previous theatre company - 'I Can't Believe We're Not Better' - who had disbanded, and after a break Rob decided it was time to get his acting boots out of storage, so he started stalking us. His words, not mine! He would come to watch us rehearse, quiet and unassuming, and would leave straight after, I later found out due to crippling shyness. He eventually bit the bullet and joined us, again quietly watching, working out if, and where, he would fit with us. Then one day, out of nowhere he jumped out of his seat, clung to the imaginary side of the Blue Pixie and Suzanne Jennifer was born! It was our first foray into comedy and that suited Rob. Suzanne Jennifer was the unexpected visitor on the Blue Pixie, a decommissioned Routemaster bus floating around in space with a ragtag group of passengers bound for who knows where, and he knew about the Whales! Think Red Dwarf with a touch of Nuts. It was brilliantly bonkers, and it was performed at the LP Cafe and The Pump House Theatre in Watford. So he was straight in at the deep end! Rob couldn't believe how quickly we had embraced him. He told me that it had took him so long to join us because he didn't think he was good enough. Let me tell you, he blew us all away immediately with his sense of fun, his chaotic energy (in the best way possible) and the imagination of a creative genius. But I'll leave Rob to tell you how he felt.....have a watch of the video.... So we decided to keep him ! Obviously!! Rob had taught himself to play the guitar and wrote his own songs, the above being one of many he wrote for the Company. Rob's first 'serious' role was to create the underscore for Little Cuts, possibly our most emotive and controversial piece to date, primarily dealing with self harm. He was given no instruction except to 'play what feels right for the scene'. And he nailed it! He had the ability to get into the head of the characters, to feel what they were feeling and to transfer that onto the strings of his guitar. We were invited to perform Little Cuts for Sir Mark Rylance at the Harold Pinter Theatre in London which was a highlight for us all, but Rob had to sit right next to him throughout the performance, strumming away. He played it cool, took it in his stride, then once safely back at home he relayed just how surreal the experience had been for him. In his mind, he was not worthy. But he was, truly. Next up was 'Fragments' in which Rob played two charcters; Trevor the Aussie farmer who leaves his family to join the Foreign Legion and find himself/lose himself, and a Victorian Music Hall Compere who introduces damaged and heartbroken Lily Baker to the stage. If you've never seen a guy in a cowboy hat doing the Haka then you've missed a treat! My character was Lily Baker and I needed a song that summed her up in a few lines, it needed to be Victorian music hall in style and a bit cheeky. Rob immediately knew the perfect song - 'Howd You Like To Spoon With Me', sung most notably by Angela Lansbury. I didn't think I could pull it off but Rob spent time with me, going over the lyrics time after time until I remembered them, adding a little dance and laughing his head off as I squirmed with embarrassment, giving the song the Lily Baker touch of sauciness with painful vulnerability . Rob also wrote two more songs for her, 'You Tickle My Fancy' which was used in Fragments, and 'What's To Become Of Me' both of which I have recorded and saved. She remains my favourite character. And I could not have created her without Rob. I want to share the lyrics with you so that you can appreciate his writing talent and how he got to the core of the character: You Tickle My Fancy Oh you tickle my fancy, yes you made a start You tickle my toes, you tickle behind me knees You really ruffle me up, if you please Oh you first caught my eye cos you were dapper and smart But most of all, you tickled my heart. Oh you tickle my fancy, yes you made a start, You tickle my ankles, you tickle my elbows too, What comes next.... I'll leave it up to you! Oh you tickle my fancy, yes you made a start You tickle my Derby Kelly with your Brighton Sands What comes next.....I think you understand Oh you first caught my eye cos you were dapper and smart But most of all you tickled my heart Oh you first caught my eye, cos you were dapper and smart But most of all..... You.....broke. My. Heart. What's To Become of Me Walking down the streets I go, wondering if I'll ever know What's to become of me I'm searching far and I'm searching wide But the answer always seems to hide What's to become of me I hide to escape but now I'm finding That I can't escape from hiding What's to become of me I'm climbing mountains, I'm scaling walls Hoping that I'll never fall What's to become of me I'm trying to find who I want to be But the last thing I want to be is like me What's to become of me I'm only happy when I'm someone else Cos it really hurts to be myself What's to become of me What's to become of me What's to become of me. Rob also supported Sarah in her singing career - she told me 'From the the moment I met Rob I knew he was a special man. He was kind, caring and had a gentle soul. He was a massive supporter of my singing and always wanted me to do more with it. Rob was one of a kind, you could tell him anything and he would do his best to help you out with his wisdom and knowledge, but he would always put a joke in there too. Sometimes good, sometimes really really bad, but that was Rob. He is an inspiration to me, friend and someone I will never forget'. Rob also joined us in two Ghost Walks for 'Spirit of the Old Town' in Old Hemel and he had the time of his life, as did we all, creating scary Halloween stories to bring to life and scare the pants off the public! Rob was initially with us when we started improvising 'Sleeping Dogs' after lockdown. He created the character of Ted, the dodgy lodger who is up to no good. Sadly Rob's health was deteriorating and he felt unable to continue, much to his distress. And ours. But as a Company we always say that our own health comes first and we support each other in whatever decisions we make. Rob had told me many times that he'd never been happier in his life than when he was with Nuts and it was incredibly difficult for him to leave us. In fact, he could never say the actual words....he just didn't come back. So, we have had a massive Rob shaped hole for a while now. But, knowing that his talent, his passion for all things creative, his endless imagination has gone is difficult to take on board as reality. He wasn't just a cast member. He was an important part of all our lives, individually, outside of Nuts. Lyanne says ' Rob was always there with a never ending supply of weird and wonderful props (apologies to the cupboard at Colne House) and a dad joke or 10. When I started my journey into makeup and special effects he was always there to let me try out whatever weird design I had come up with and spent hours with me in the Natural History Museum so I could take pictures for references. He also helped me make my first ever makeup trolley by supplying me with a frame and wheels of a shopping trolley he had found in a skip. Speaking of weird and wonderful it was always fun to see what gifts Rob had for us at the annual Nutsmas.....all were very much a Rob kind of gift, including a very lovely snow globe with the logo at the time and a heart on the backside....which turned out that the heart was also on Rob's backside. I will forever miss your strumming along on a guitar, endless dad jokes, boundless creativity, pulling us through all the charity shops at the end of a rehearsal and most importantly I will forever miss you.' If you have ever seen May Contain Nuts perform, or have attended our workshops, you will know that we are not just colleagues. Or even just friends. We are a family. And Rob was very much at our centre. He was quiet, shy and humble. Gentle and kind. Patient and encouraging. He had a mind jam packed with random facts and interesting trivia and he would have us in fits of giggles every week during rehearsal. And he was the master of the terrible dad joke, and delivered them in a way that made them hilarious, mostly because of the wry smile he had while telling them. He was a collector of 'stuff', he loved a shopping trolley and had a thing for tea trolleys - in fact he had 2, maybe even 3 in the store cupboard that he'd wheel out full of props that we'd mess about with even if they had no place in the piece we were working on. He loved a hat, a particular favourite being the big purple sombrero in the picture below. He loved to dress up, and to make Gerald dress up! Rob had decided that whenever Gerald was over a minute late to rehearsal he'd have to dress up, so Gerald grew to love the pink tutu! There can't be a charity shop in the whole of Watford, even North London, that Rob hadn't been in. Every week he'd come in with the purchase of the day, which may have seemed random but he always had a plan! And he was a master skip diver too and would create all manner of things with whatever bounty he discovered. And he'd bring in his latest invention to amaze us all with, with the joy of a small child and a smile that matched. It was infectious. I could genuinely talk about Rob til the cows come home and I'd never do him justice. He was truly one of a kind. Someone who made his way into your heart without trying and set up camp. And that's where he still lives. In every performance, every laugh, and every charity shop and skip. We miss you Rob. But you are with us eternally. The last word will go to Liz, which I think sums Rob up perfectly: 'There were so many facets to Rob’s personality. One I was particularly impressed with was his acceptance of other people - I never heard him say a bad word about anyone. His ability to ‘liberate’ items was impressive; cups, Christmas crackers and large rolls of tape come to mind. I’m including a poem which I hope will give an idea of the man I knew. To Rob with my love Liz ‘Generosity’ Generosity is not about how much I have in my wallet or pocket or bank account but it is about how much I have in the hoard of my heart by David Gate Written by Kerry, with help from Lyanne, Liz and Sarah on behalf of Gerald and May Contain Nuts Theatre Company.
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Mental Health - It’s Complicated Tucked away in our very busy workshop schedule was the HFPT Recovery Conference titled: Mental Health is Everyone’s Concern. We had been requested to provide an item and only the monologues fitted the allocated time slot so off I went (by myself) and performed. In the Delegate pack provided there were a number of pieces written by service users concerning their mental health difficulties, manifestations and treatment and also how they felt they were regarded by professionals. There was a piece describing the mental health of refugees which I found particularly challenging. The topic of what constitutes a mental health disorder has been troubling me for some time. Is the shorthand of ‘Mad, Bad and Sad’ relevant, divisive or insulting? The phrase, for me, clouds the nuances of what is or isn’t a mental health illness or disorder. My perception could very well be influenced by my childhood (bear with me). I grew up living around the corner to one of the largest Victorian lunatic asylums: Colney Hatch, later Friern Hospital and later still, The Friern. To give my mother her due she always said that the patients found life hard and never used the word ‘mad’. The man who loved fire engines, frequently dialing 999 to see one and the woman with her two daughters collecting conkers for the local children were accepted as part of our community. Nothing was said about those not allowed out or the treatment they may have received. The beliefs that addicts have brought it upon themselves and anyone sad is self indulgent are still expressed (usually by the generation that went through the Second World War). Public awareness of mental health has been raised over the last few years so that, on the whole, it is acceptable to talk about and discuss the subject openly - to the point where the words ‘mental health’ are used carelessly and daily on radio and TV. Many illnesses, disorders and syndromes come under the umbrella of mental health and I wonder if the realisation or understanding of the life threatening effect of some illnesses is at risk of being lost. Just as there was an invisible line drawn between the the conker collectors or fire engine fan and the unseen patients at The Friern, is there, or should there be, a line between neuro-divergent (an umbrella term in itself) and being a significant danger to yourself or others? Two tiers: the acceptable and unacceptable faces of mental health? If there is an unseen line, has public perception changed or stigma really been removed? It’s complicated. Written by Liz - Company Member
After I deliver a feeble performance, they come back in, ready for confrontation. Apparently they had sat through six other monologues and found some of them “triggering “ therefore they chose to leave mine.
For those who have not attended a recovery conference, there are a variety of presentations. This event covered the history of mental health provision, testimonies of personal lived experiences, new research and future provisions. Each date and venue had the privilege of monologues written and performed by individual Nuts company members. Yes, it hurt, them choosing to leave, the way they did, at the time they did. However their demands for a trigger warning left me perplexed. They had sat through the horrific history of asylums with details of treatment and grotesque equipment. Personal stories, delivered with the reality of the experiences of life, living with mental ill health. Yet my monologue, a dramatic reflection, derived from my experiences underscored with Samuel Barber's Adagio was deemed as a potential threat, thus they felt it should have carried a trigger warning. They argued that they found some of the other monologues triggering, yet they sat through them. In fact they had chosen to attend all the previous conferences sitting through every monologue on different days at different venues yet mine, the last conference date and the last monologue was such a potential threat that they noisily walked out as I set up the stage! So it got me to thinking... about trigger warnings. I'm an avid news watcher, I often talk to the telly when the anchor states, the following article contains scenes some may find distressing. Really!?! I mean no disrespect, nor do I wish to appear flippant, but really? Scenes of war, violence, poverty, famine, are we meant to gaze on indifferent, unfeeling, are we meant to lose our humanity? The following film contains scenes of nudity, violence, horror etc. The child in me mostly wants to laugh. Unless it's horror. I don't do horror films, however I'm adult enough to check what I'm watching or is that the point? Responsibility for oneself. I have spent some months before writing this researching (should read, using t’internet) ‘trigger warnings ‘ wishing to give a balanced view however it would appear the general consensus is, they don't work. It would appear they have “ a negligible impact on emotional reactions and on avoidance”. Further, trigger warnings can create “an anticipatory emotional response, as shown through both measures of affect and changes in heart rate... (suggests) people may anticipate distress but... does not stop them viewing “ The British Psychological Society. This is supported when considering university trigger warnings, “ students who met the criteria for a diagnosis of post-traumatic stress disorder, 97.6% ignored the trigger warning and read on." Further there is data to “ support the notion that trigger warnings serve to increase anxiety. “ Psychology Today I have tried to find an academic paper/ institution that concluded differently but I'm afraid I didn't find anything. Yes, there are triggers in life, yet I believe the avoidance of content that may ‘trigger ‘ an adult, is about personal responsibility. After going through a traumatic experience, it seems reasonable to avoid that which resembles the trauma, for a period. Life goes on and the hope is in time (with treatment where necessary) one can return to a full, enough, life. On a side note, maybe I should have been warned that audience members could walk out, when I take to the stage! Just kidding 😏 2023 marks the beginning of the 2nd decade of May Contain Nuts, something which still sounds incredible even as it's being typed. While we have had moments where it seemed like not too much was happening, when we sat down for our Nutsmas takeaway and discussed this past year, turns out we were really rather busy.
As always we had our yearly workshops with the students from Queen Mary University of London and the University of Hertfordshire. We also returned for an extended length of scenario training sessions for the student nurses, also at the University of Hertfordshire. Our collaboration with MIND to create a Drama Support Group kicked off in February this year. After finding a fantastic facilitator in Abi, the first group started up in Watford and while it was initially only due to run for 6 months before we started up another group in Ware for the final 6 months of the pilot project, the Watford group was proven to be helpful and successful enough to be allowed to run for the entirety of the year. Attendees from both Watford and Ware have commented on how the group is helping with their general mental well being and in building their confidence and it is an absolute joy to be a part of this journey with them. While the funding for the pilot year does run out in early 2024, we are currently in the process of applying for more funding that will hopefully allow us to run the groups for as long as possible. We were lucky enough to be nominated for 2 awards this year. The first was the HPFT As One Together Award, which celebrates partnership projects between HPFT and other organisations with the aim of improving the wellbeing of people struggling with mental health issues. Our category was full with many wonderful teams that do great work and we are very blessed to have won this award. The 2nd award we have been nominated for is the Student Nursing Times award in the Partnership of the Year category for our work with the student nurses at the University of Hertfordshire. Fingers crossed for us in early 2024 when we will hear more from this. We had a wonderful evening in April with family and friends showing both acts of our newest piece 'Sleeping Dogs' which was well received and led to several interesting discussions. Our final performance for this year was on the 5th of December when we performed the first act of 'Sleeping Dogs' for the CEO of HPFT and members from the Psychology Team ( who won the Highly Commended in the As One Together category) and a drama therapist or two. This also went well with discussions around the arts in therapy and how we as a theatre company work following up from this. We were very lucky to receive a mention from the CEO in her blog. Several new exciting opportunities have come up for us this year as well. We were invited to perform and talk at Royal Central School of Speech and Drama. This was part of a workshop/conference about dramatherapy and it's uses. In spite of the fire alarm going off towards the end of the session, we had a wonderful time and have been invited back to do workshops with their dramatherapy and drama performance students in the new year. We were also put in touch with another tutor from the University of Hertfordshire who has asked us to do scenario training for a week in early February 2024. One big project that is potentially in the works will involve a collaboration with NHS England and will possibly involve us going on tour to the 7 regions that make up NHS England. We should be able to share more on this in early 2024. Through our current work with the student nurses at the University of Hertfordshire, we have been invited to take part in a talk at the University of Lancaster. We are also looking to reconnect with the University of Roehampton and Anglia Ruskin University to offer workshops for their students as well. Closer to home, we are in talks about joining the team at the Simulation Faculty within HPFT to help run their simulation training for current HPFT staff and members of the emergency services. We have also been offered the opportunity to run a resilience training workshop for staff at HPFT in the new year at HPFT headquarters. Lastly we are in the process of developing a new piece to take into Secondary schools which will look at opening discussions around how to access mental health services and about mental health in general. All that remains to say is thank you all once again for all your love and support that you have shown us this year, as you have every year. We are blessed to be able to share our experiences with mental health with you through our performances and workshops. All the best for 2024 and see you sometime in the future. Once a project has finished and we have decided on a title, it's time to design the advertising! If you are a regular reader of the weekly Directors Notes you will know that it took a long time after the project was finished before we decided on a title. Many suggestions were thrown into the ring, we probably had about a dozen to begin with but after a quick vote it was decided that 'Sleeping Dogs' was perfect. So to the design! We, as a Company, like to give every member the opportunity to get creative so we never leave this process to any one individual and this time was no different. However, this time round, instead of choosing just one design we decided to use all three! Below are the 3 designs with a little bit from the creators about the inspiration for them. jocelynOnce the title was decided, it was time to think about posters. At first, I thought of the origins of the saying 'let sleeping dogs lie', so I started looking at Chaucer's poem; the line "it is nought good a slepying hound to wake"is thought to be the origin of the phrase, however, when looking at the plot behind Troilus and Cressida's story did not relate to our play. Then I started to look for pictures of medieval dogs and saw...a sleeping dog! I used the three cushions to represent the mother and daughters in our play and as my dog Bentley has an epic tail when he is happily trotting around (a cross between a squirrel and a pig!) I incorporated the three colours of the cushions in the tail to show the familial connection. And here is Bentley in all his (sleeping) glory! |
Three hours before our workshop was due to begin there was a frantic rethinking and adapting of the content and running programme for our morning with the students (see Director’s Notes). Gerald and two of The Company agreed a plan and with surprising calm off we went. The students were guided through a variety of games while we read and re-read our monologues which hadn’t been performed in person for 2 and a half years. From what we could hear, the games were a great success and they subtly introduced co-operation, listening and awareness from an active rather than passive position. Our monologues followed, requiring the students to quickly adjust between two subjects presented in very different ways. The small group feedback was interesting and varied. For me the most helpful and rewarding part of these workshops is when The Company go round each group to try and ‘answer the questions you wouldn’t ask in a clinical setting’. This is our opportunity to offer some insight into our experiences and hopefully enable participants to see the uniqueness of each individual without judgement. In my opinion there is always a need for education and a greater understanding of mental health issues which cannot be learned from textbooks alone. I hope The Company can give something, however small, that sparks a new train of thought or challenges an outlook or approach. On this occasion some of the thoughts expressed were ones I had not received before. They were definitely thought provoking; I discovered that what is obvious to me is not necessarily obvious to others (a lesson I’ve taken on board). When we return we intend to perform our 2 act piece currently being devised. Previously we have been privileged to spend a whole day with students and we would love to do so again. There is so much to explore which must surely be beneficial to all - students and actors alike. Liz Weatherley 19th May 2022 |
At the core of our work and therefore one of our strongest talents is improvisation. Our recent role play sessions with the Mental Health Nursing students from the School of Health and Social Work at the University of Hertfordshire was an excellent opportunity to display that. The clinical scenarios allowed us as cast members to tap into our lived experience and each scenario showed our adaptability in being able to respond to each student's approach to the given scene unfolding before them. Each session saw the students improve in their communication skills, their response to and understanding of the 'service user' before them.
After each scenario the feedback given by us in addition to that of their tutors assisted in further learning and it could be seen that many of the students gained a deeper understanding of the service users experience.
The scenarios given to the students were varied. Some dealing with crisis, psychosis and through to gender and identity and grief. They were set in different locations eg. at home, on a psychiatric ward, at a psychiatrist office. The information provided to the students was brief, with our roles as actors being more detailed and it was the job of the student to glean as much information as they could from the service user in order to understand, respond appropriately and plan a way forward to assist in the recovery, or at least contain a crisis situation. It is fair to say that we didn't give them an easy ride, but by using our own lived experiences we are giving the students a genuine insight into the minds of real people whose care they will be involved with in their chosen occupation. It was heartening to see the change in attitude from some of the students and the way they took on board our comments and recommendations and put them into practice in their next scenario.
There were many opportunities for the students to respond to real situations, trying out various techniques and language to establish the correct approach to what can be a stressful and frightening experience for the service user. After discussion it was heartening to see the change in attitude from the students and the way they took on board our comments and recommendations and put them into practice in their next scenario.
Working through these scenarios is an extremely rewarding and enjoyable experience for the Company. Being able to assist in the learning of future Mental Health Professionals gives us a great feeling of achievement and satisfaction. We know how beneficial these sessions were to the growth of the students, but also to their tutors and to us. Having input into the way that the subject of mental health is approached in teaching is immensely valuable to us, and it adds an extra dimension to the way tutors approach lectures with us as real people in their minds.
Going forward as a Company we would like to expand this opportunity for learning into other universities. We work in a way that is safe for both the students and ourselves and we have always adopted an 'ask us anything' approach. This means that we encourage students to ask us things that they might be reluctant to for fear of offence or ridicule, or that they genuinely have never considered. It can be seen as an invaluable opportunity to make mistakes that in a real world situation could cause harm or distress to the service user. We are always open and honest in our responses to them which can sometimes be challenging for the students, but always ultimately valuable. At the moment other places of education use professional actors for any kind of role play experience but it is our belief, as evidenced by our work with the University of Hertfordshire that using actors with lived experience is the most authentic way of teaching and learning. Their feedback to us was gratefully received:
" May Contain Nuts did a series of improvisation role plays with our student nurses. This was an excellent experience and we saw the students grow each week in their communication skills, approach and confidence. The theatre company were fantastic at adapting their responses to how the students spoke and reacted to the situations presented in the role plays to allow a more "real life" feel. The actors also reflected back with the students afterwards about the role plays to allow the students to think about their communication and also shared some of their personal experiences of living with mental health problems and what they've found has helped from professionals. This experience complimented taught sessions perfectly, and is something the students will value throughout their course and professional careers. Thanks May Contain Nuts, and we look forward to welcoming you back again!"
We are often asked how we keep ourselves safe during and after these sessions. The answer is simply one of strength within ourselves as a Company, as service users and as friends who have a unique insight into each others worlds, a mutual respect and compassion for one another. We have an opportunity to discuss the sessions, both the positive and negative elements and support each other when needed. We are indeed the most unique of Companies in that respect.
We would like to thank the students for their hard work and commitment, their openness to us and for their desire to be better mental health professionals than (some of) those who have gone before them. We look forward to coming back next year for an extended run of 6 sessions with a new cohort of students.
After each scenario the feedback given by us in addition to that of their tutors assisted in further learning and it could be seen that many of the students gained a deeper understanding of the service users experience.
The scenarios given to the students were varied. Some dealing with crisis, psychosis and through to gender and identity and grief. They were set in different locations eg. at home, on a psychiatric ward, at a psychiatrist office. The information provided to the students was brief, with our roles as actors being more detailed and it was the job of the student to glean as much information as they could from the service user in order to understand, respond appropriately and plan a way forward to assist in the recovery, or at least contain a crisis situation. It is fair to say that we didn't give them an easy ride, but by using our own lived experiences we are giving the students a genuine insight into the minds of real people whose care they will be involved with in their chosen occupation. It was heartening to see the change in attitude from some of the students and the way they took on board our comments and recommendations and put them into practice in their next scenario.
There were many opportunities for the students to respond to real situations, trying out various techniques and language to establish the correct approach to what can be a stressful and frightening experience for the service user. After discussion it was heartening to see the change in attitude from the students and the way they took on board our comments and recommendations and put them into practice in their next scenario.
Working through these scenarios is an extremely rewarding and enjoyable experience for the Company. Being able to assist in the learning of future Mental Health Professionals gives us a great feeling of achievement and satisfaction. We know how beneficial these sessions were to the growth of the students, but also to their tutors and to us. Having input into the way that the subject of mental health is approached in teaching is immensely valuable to us, and it adds an extra dimension to the way tutors approach lectures with us as real people in their minds.
Going forward as a Company we would like to expand this opportunity for learning into other universities. We work in a way that is safe for both the students and ourselves and we have always adopted an 'ask us anything' approach. This means that we encourage students to ask us things that they might be reluctant to for fear of offence or ridicule, or that they genuinely have never considered. It can be seen as an invaluable opportunity to make mistakes that in a real world situation could cause harm or distress to the service user. We are always open and honest in our responses to them which can sometimes be challenging for the students, but always ultimately valuable. At the moment other places of education use professional actors for any kind of role play experience but it is our belief, as evidenced by our work with the University of Hertfordshire that using actors with lived experience is the most authentic way of teaching and learning. Their feedback to us was gratefully received:
" May Contain Nuts did a series of improvisation role plays with our student nurses. This was an excellent experience and we saw the students grow each week in their communication skills, approach and confidence. The theatre company were fantastic at adapting their responses to how the students spoke and reacted to the situations presented in the role plays to allow a more "real life" feel. The actors also reflected back with the students afterwards about the role plays to allow the students to think about their communication and also shared some of their personal experiences of living with mental health problems and what they've found has helped from professionals. This experience complimented taught sessions perfectly, and is something the students will value throughout their course and professional careers. Thanks May Contain Nuts, and we look forward to welcoming you back again!"
We are often asked how we keep ourselves safe during and after these sessions. The answer is simply one of strength within ourselves as a Company, as service users and as friends who have a unique insight into each others worlds, a mutual respect and compassion for one another. We have an opportunity to discuss the sessions, both the positive and negative elements and support each other when needed. We are indeed the most unique of Companies in that respect.
We would like to thank the students for their hard work and commitment, their openness to us and for their desire to be better mental health professionals than (some of) those who have gone before them. We look forward to coming back next year for an extended run of 6 sessions with a new cohort of students.
Please feel free to leave comments as we always welcome feedback.
It's been an amazing 10 years for May Contain Nuts Theatre Company. We've been through a lot as individuals, we've each had our own mental health challenges to cope with, and as a Company with the uncertainty of lockdown and wondering if we'd come out the other side with the same passion and dedication. But WE HAVE!! And we would like to share some of our thoughts and memories from our first decade with you, while looking forward to the next !
Please feel free to leave a comment or send us an email if you have any questions about our work, we love a bit of feedback and are always happy to respond.
Please feel free to leave a comment or send us an email if you have any questions about our work, we love a bit of feedback and are always happy to respond.
Sarah
What can I say about Nuts? No words could ever sum up what Nuts has done for me, but here's a few. So many laughs, tears and hugs. Bonds that will last a lifetime. Nuts brings the best out of me, I can be someone I want to be and not be judged for who I am or what illness I have. Nuts has changed my life, what more can I say but 'thank you' xxx
What can I say about Nuts? No words could ever sum up what Nuts has done for me, but here's a few. So many laughs, tears and hugs. Bonds that will last a lifetime. Nuts brings the best out of me, I can be someone I want to be and not be judged for who I am or what illness I have. Nuts has changed my life, what more can I say but 'thank you' xxx
Kerry
Prior to my mental health struggles I had no interest in drama, acting or writing. I've always been creative but more with art and crafts, and my only experience with acting or performing had been in the school play, aged 12, being forced to do it and hating every minute. Not the best experience for a little girl who didn't want to exist let alone be visible.
Fast forward 28 years and I found myself on the other side of a suicide attempt and being offered Drama Therapy as a way to express my thoughts and emotions in a safe way. I didn't have anything to lose at that point so I thought 'why not?'. It has turned out to be the best thing that has ever happened. I'm not going to pretend it was easy, it was actually very challenging, even distressing and scary at times but all in a safe environment facilitated by a genius of a Drama Therapist (who happens to now be our Director so I have to say nice things about him :-)). Ultimately, it saved my life. And then gave me something to live for.
Enter stage right May Contain Nuts! In a strange way it has made all the trauma of having mental health issues worth it, because without them I would never have walked this path, met this amazing group of creatives, experienced the feeling of being a worthwhile human being and making true friends for the first time in my life. Being able to use my past experiences as well as current struggles to colour each character that I devise is healing in itself, and then using that person to illustrate the difficulties we face in every day life as well as the stressful situations that hit us out of nowhere.
For me, the most valuable thing is performing for Psychology students and running workshops with them. The feedback we get, not just for the quality of our performances, but the benefit they get from talking to us candidly about our experiences, both on a personal level in describing how our illnesses manifest, and our experiences of various mental health services and professionals. We work with them on an 'ask us anything' basis and we answer with honesty which sometimes takes them aback and sometimes reduces them to tears. But to make a difference to the way they see 'patients' as real people with real lives and valid experiences is beyond rewarding for me. To be told that their time with us has been the most useful part of their module is truly gratifying and if we can have even a tiny influence in the way future mental health professionals see us then our work is done. And for me it's worth every emotion that I put in.
So if you are reading this as someone with mental health issues and wondering if Drama Therapy will help, I would urge you to try it. If you are a student reading this and wondering what career path to take, I would say have a serious look at being a Drama Therapist. People like us need people like you.
Here's to a future of acceptance and understanding of mental health issues, and to another 10 years of working to achieve that goal.
Jocelyn
For me Nuts is more than a theatre company. Working with university students, Community Mental Health Teams and the general public; creating pieces around mental health is a valuable and enjoyable thing to do.
In a Nutshell - being involved going on the stage helps and teaches equally.
For me Nuts is more than a theatre company. Working with university students, Community Mental Health Teams and the general public; creating pieces around mental health is a valuable and enjoyable thing to do.
In a Nutshell - being involved going on the stage helps and teaches equally.
Gerald
This year marks the 10th anniversary of May Contain Nuts. Ten years! That in itself is an achievement, separate to all the hard work, productions, workshops, Q&As and small group work we have done. Ten years ago, this year, a group of people interested putting on a performance started to improvise around a very simple idea of someone sitting in a chair. We spent the afternoon gathering ideas, suggestions and hope, because we wanted something to happen. Something that would illustrate an honest and open view of mental illness and mental health care. It was a sunny afternoon, warm and exciting: something was going to happen and in that space we began, we started and what was our first step became something which a few years later would gather the support of Sir Mark Rylance and be nominated for three national awards, winning two of them and being highlighted as an example of excellence in practice. We have a come a long way, but never strayed from our message and our focus.
Over the last ten years we have improvised and produced seven shows, countless workshops and been involved in higher and further education as well as secondary schools as an advocate for further understanding of mental illness. WE have helped train and educate: psychologists, nurses, drama therapists, pupils and teachers at schools. We have championed speaking out about mental health, educating people , challenging bias and prejudice and taking our expertise to professional clinicians of the future. And, we will continue to do so.
It hasn’t always been an easy journey. We have had people leave and people join and each change in such a small tight knit group takes time, but we have rolled on and are now exceeding what we thought was achievable in terms of quality and creativity with a show that for the first time will be over two acts. It is also our first show that does not focus directly on mental illness, but looks at the impact of relationships upon a group of woman, with each other, and the absent men. I am sure this will be the most dynamic and relevant piece we have yet produced. We have previewed act one with an audience and the feedback and comments illustrated that there is an excitement for what it says and for where it will go in act two. Considering we have spent a year on producing it, the response was very gratifying and encouraging.
We work hard, we don’t settle, we improve all the time and we learn all the time. We put together challenging pieces that audiences applaud but also question and disagree with. We’re honest about the way we work, what we can produce and why we say and do certain things in our shows. We don’t pull our punches which makes us challenging and outspoken; but we always want to learn and understand because that helps us and the work that we produce.
This is a company I am proud to be involved with. A company that has worked hard to win awards, plaudits and support for the work we have accomplished. We work at the grass roots because that’s the best place to start but we walk on to perform wherever we’re needed, be it Universities, multi-disciplinary teams, schools, theatres, mental health units, churches, pubs or anywhere we can, making our message and our support accessible for all.
Here’s to the next ten years…
This year marks the 10th anniversary of May Contain Nuts. Ten years! That in itself is an achievement, separate to all the hard work, productions, workshops, Q&As and small group work we have done. Ten years ago, this year, a group of people interested putting on a performance started to improvise around a very simple idea of someone sitting in a chair. We spent the afternoon gathering ideas, suggestions and hope, because we wanted something to happen. Something that would illustrate an honest and open view of mental illness and mental health care. It was a sunny afternoon, warm and exciting: something was going to happen and in that space we began, we started and what was our first step became something which a few years later would gather the support of Sir Mark Rylance and be nominated for three national awards, winning two of them and being highlighted as an example of excellence in practice. We have a come a long way, but never strayed from our message and our focus.
Over the last ten years we have improvised and produced seven shows, countless workshops and been involved in higher and further education as well as secondary schools as an advocate for further understanding of mental illness. WE have helped train and educate: psychologists, nurses, drama therapists, pupils and teachers at schools. We have championed speaking out about mental health, educating people , challenging bias and prejudice and taking our expertise to professional clinicians of the future. And, we will continue to do so.
It hasn’t always been an easy journey. We have had people leave and people join and each change in such a small tight knit group takes time, but we have rolled on and are now exceeding what we thought was achievable in terms of quality and creativity with a show that for the first time will be over two acts. It is also our first show that does not focus directly on mental illness, but looks at the impact of relationships upon a group of woman, with each other, and the absent men. I am sure this will be the most dynamic and relevant piece we have yet produced. We have previewed act one with an audience and the feedback and comments illustrated that there is an excitement for what it says and for where it will go in act two. Considering we have spent a year on producing it, the response was very gratifying and encouraging.
We work hard, we don’t settle, we improve all the time and we learn all the time. We put together challenging pieces that audiences applaud but also question and disagree with. We’re honest about the way we work, what we can produce and why we say and do certain things in our shows. We don’t pull our punches which makes us challenging and outspoken; but we always want to learn and understand because that helps us and the work that we produce.
This is a company I am proud to be involved with. A company that has worked hard to win awards, plaudits and support for the work we have accomplished. We work at the grass roots because that’s the best place to start but we walk on to perform wherever we’re needed, be it Universities, multi-disciplinary teams, schools, theatres, mental health units, churches, pubs or anywhere we can, making our message and our support accessible for all.
Here’s to the next ten years…
Lyanne
If someone asks me "what do you see yourself doing in 5 years time?" I used reply with "I don't know what I'm doing in a months time." Imagine my surprise when we realised that May Contain Nuts turns 10 this year.
While I had underlying mental health issues for a while, 2 major events brought everything to a single point in my life, starting drama therapy. I found it strange how this 1 hour a week session was able to help me understand my feelings and thoughts and struggles in a way that I couldn't quite manage when in general talking therapy. Somewhere down the line our Drama Therapist (also our director, who somewhat keeps us focused) mentioned about starting up a drama group that wouldn't be about the therapy side of things, where we would create a piece and present it to friends and family.
So it began, with a man in a chair, and developed into our first piece titled 'Insidious Baggage'. During this we explored the relationships between co workers where the mental health of the much beloved Ozzy (just don't ask Shirley) was causing problems in and out of the workplace.
An opportunity came about to present this piece as part of a workshop that Gerald (see director) teaches more or less every year for the Doctorate in Clinical Psychology students at the University of Hertfordshire at the end of 2012. We had barely taken our bows when we all shared a look, this is something amazing, when can we do it again.
So we did it again, we created more plays, we did a series of monologues, we've even managed to put on a performance or 2 via zoom when we were under lockdown. We have always been honest and upfront when talking about how our mental health impacts our lives, take time to remind everyone that we all have mental health just not everyone has mental ill health and trying to educate people to think in ways other than what is taught in a textbook or shown in the media.
Throughout the years, the highs and lows, the comings and goings, we have adjusted and adapted in ways we never would have thought possible. We have continued to produce shows and pieces that will always be relevant and to a high standard that we set ourselves. This standard is reflected in our 3 nominations for innovation in mental health where we won 2 of those, including the Advancing Healthcare Award sponsored by The Guardian newspaper. We have given interviews, performed at conferences, in pubs, anywhere that will take us. We have a wonderful patron in Sir Mark Rylance and, barring Covid-19, have yearly workshops with several Universities.
For the most part the past 10 years have been some of the best of my life, but there is no way I could have done any of it without the rest of the company, and for that I thank them from the bottom of my heart for this amazing journey we have all taken to get here.
Happy 10th birthday May Contain Nuts, looking forward to the next 10. xx
If someone asks me "what do you see yourself doing in 5 years time?" I used reply with "I don't know what I'm doing in a months time." Imagine my surprise when we realised that May Contain Nuts turns 10 this year.
While I had underlying mental health issues for a while, 2 major events brought everything to a single point in my life, starting drama therapy. I found it strange how this 1 hour a week session was able to help me understand my feelings and thoughts and struggles in a way that I couldn't quite manage when in general talking therapy. Somewhere down the line our Drama Therapist (also our director, who somewhat keeps us focused) mentioned about starting up a drama group that wouldn't be about the therapy side of things, where we would create a piece and present it to friends and family.
So it began, with a man in a chair, and developed into our first piece titled 'Insidious Baggage'. During this we explored the relationships between co workers where the mental health of the much beloved Ozzy (just don't ask Shirley) was causing problems in and out of the workplace.
An opportunity came about to present this piece as part of a workshop that Gerald (see director) teaches more or less every year for the Doctorate in Clinical Psychology students at the University of Hertfordshire at the end of 2012. We had barely taken our bows when we all shared a look, this is something amazing, when can we do it again.
So we did it again, we created more plays, we did a series of monologues, we've even managed to put on a performance or 2 via zoom when we were under lockdown. We have always been honest and upfront when talking about how our mental health impacts our lives, take time to remind everyone that we all have mental health just not everyone has mental ill health and trying to educate people to think in ways other than what is taught in a textbook or shown in the media.
Throughout the years, the highs and lows, the comings and goings, we have adjusted and adapted in ways we never would have thought possible. We have continued to produce shows and pieces that will always be relevant and to a high standard that we set ourselves. This standard is reflected in our 3 nominations for innovation in mental health where we won 2 of those, including the Advancing Healthcare Award sponsored by The Guardian newspaper. We have given interviews, performed at conferences, in pubs, anywhere that will take us. We have a wonderful patron in Sir Mark Rylance and, barring Covid-19, have yearly workshops with several Universities.
For the most part the past 10 years have been some of the best of my life, but there is no way I could have done any of it without the rest of the company, and for that I thank them from the bottom of my heart for this amazing journey we have all taken to get here.
Happy 10th birthday May Contain Nuts, looking forward to the next 10. xx
Liz
10 years!
A lot can happen in 10 years. From an acorn of an idea Nuts has grown. With each rehearsal, each performance and each workshop we have grown in confidence. We have survived mauling by ‘professionals’, indifference from doctors and adulation from drama and psychology students.
Awards and ceremonies have come our way; we have taken our place alongside amazing health workers as equals. We are seen and heard, our ‘lived experience’ appreciated and validated.
There have been ups and downs but the company has held together, supporting each other and working through difficulties. We are unique (of course we are) and will remain so.
After 10 years I am so grateful to belong to a family and that family’s name is Nuts.
10 years!
A lot can happen in 10 years. From an acorn of an idea Nuts has grown. With each rehearsal, each performance and each workshop we have grown in confidence. We have survived mauling by ‘professionals’, indifference from doctors and adulation from drama and psychology students.
Awards and ceremonies have come our way; we have taken our place alongside amazing health workers as equals. We are seen and heard, our ‘lived experience’ appreciated and validated.
There have been ups and downs but the company has held together, supporting each other and working through difficulties. We are unique (of course we are) and will remain so.
After 10 years I am so grateful to belong to a family and that family’s name is Nuts.
As we all know, 2020 was a washout. 'Nuff said about that. So we were quietly hoping that 2021 might be a bit better, but it wasn't looking good as we entered another full lockdown after Christmas. We knew we had a couple of performances booked in but that we wouldn't be able to perform them. But the show must go on! And Zoom became our best friend. It's fair to say we had our reservations about putting on any kind of performance 'virtually', we pride ourselves in putting our hearts into our pieces and were worried the impact would be lost. So, what to do? We didn't want another year of nothing!
During 2019 we had developed individual monologues which we had already performed in front of audiences and they had been very well received. Would they be as effective over Zoom? Would they be as powerful if the audience could only see our faces, without us being able to build an atmosphere, without the 'bigger picture' of a physical performance?
What if we created a 'smaller picture'? Or no picture at all. Just our voices. Like a radio play perhaps? Could we make it work? We didn't have much time to find out as our first booking was in January for the DClinPsych students at the University of Hertfordshire as part of their course module entitled ' Power, Inclusion and Social Justice', so we set about rehearsing over Zoom, cameras off, just listening. And it worked! It was a different way of working for us, solely using vocal tone, pauses, volume and silence to create the scene in the mind of the listener. Our individual monologues are each so different but they all still worked amazingly well, and the feedback was incredible! It was a different experience for the audience too, having to listen and actually hear what was being said, without the visual of a physical actor to watch. It's always fascinating for us to hear what the students have taken from our performances and I think it's fair to say that we didn't know what to expect this time round. But they had been so engaged, so 'in the moment' with each monologue, with different thoughts, reflections and reactions to feed back to us. It was lovely for us to see all the little heart emojis popping up on the screen! We enjoyed it immensely and it filled us with confidence to be able to use Zoom again for our booking with Queen Mary's University Msc Creative Arts and Mental Health students for their module 'Critical Encounters in Art and Mental Health' in February, and finally for the Art Therapists of the Herts Partnership NHS Foundation Trust as part of their continuing professional development in October.
Once the lockdown restrictions were eased enough that we were able to meet again in our new rehearsal space at Beechen Grove, we took the bull by the horns and set to work on our as yet untitled new piece. We started in our usual fashion, batting around ideas, walking around the room just to see what emerged organically. It's no exaggeration to say that we had so many ideas that we had trouble trying to trim them down to something cohesive and workable. And we trimmed, and reshaped, and trimmed again, lost our momentum, started again, added more, and more, got confused, lost the plot and blew our minds. But it's been incredible! And we've had so much fun. It's been the hardest we have ever worked, it's the most complex piece we have ever created, and we can't wait to perform it. Although a slight departure from our obvious themes of mental health, this piece is about the complexity of relationships within a family, the fluidity of roles and the fragility of individuals within the strength of the family unit. This piece is also our first to be in two Acts. We are in the finishing stages of Act 1 and will be working on Act 2 during 2022 as well as performing Act 1, the first being in January. We are all so excited about this piece and very proud of what we have created so far.
So 2021 began with a question mark but it has ended with a sense of achievement for us Nuts! As a Company we are all in a good place after a very challenging couple of years. We've each individually had some very difficult times, but as we have always done, we have pulled together to keep each other afloat and get us through. Because above all else, it's our mental health that matters and it will always be our priority. And so we will welcome 2022 with open arms and continue to raise awareness, end the stigma and promote positive attitudes towards mental health issues.
We wish you all a very happy Christmas and a happy and healthy new year!
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